Self Medicating

Okay. So for those of you who haven't figured it out yet, or have not been paying attention... graduate school is what one would call stressful! I'm blessed because I really like my professors and the classes I am taking and yet, between now and Christmas I have about 100 pages of original scholarship to craft, two hour long presentations/discussion leadings, and a fifteen minute performance of my own creation.  See this is the point when all of ya'll non-theatre people go, "uh don't you just act and stuff." No. We actually read books and write papers, and yes, those papers in fact do have to have proper formatting and citations! Who would have known? /rant over/

Anyway.



So how do we cope. Some people smoke. Some people drink. Some people never sleep. Some people simply don't cope and get kinda nuts. None of those are going to solve my stress levels. But the vice I have chosen (yikes! Admitting its a choice!) is junk food.

Oh my goodness. I self medicate with junk food. Cheese and chocolate in particular. This past 10 days or so I would have given pretty much anything to have someone hook me up to a Hot Chocolate IV.  Usually I want coffee or Dr. Pepper, but this week, oh my goodness people, all I want is Hot Chocolate made with milk. Notice the made with milk part? Well, um yeah. There lies the rub... all of the junk food I want is just that junk. The sugar free/fat free/low calorie/blahblah version just does not cut it. The same way a 100 calorie pack of cookies just makes things worse, ya know? And, I will admit, mid blog post I retrieved the Campus Pollyeyes take out menu from my downloads folder and order the worlds most amazing stuffed bread sticks. Literally. the. world's. most. amazing. Whoops...

I have tried really hard to not  I would like to say that I have tried to not turn to food and yummy drinks to make myself less stressed and feel better. But its just not true. I'm not really looking for advice... just mostly putting it here and making it obvious to myself.

In reality, I am not that stressed about the work to be done this semester. Its my thesis next semester that is daunting. I have a lighter course load and will get credit hours for workin on/writing my thesis... but still its just kinda daunting. Good thing one chapter will be written this semester for one of my classes. Start that later this week... Thursday = Veteran's Day = Try and stay ahead with term papers day. (And my Dad's birthday ;P )

I actually like being in school. I like going to class and I like doing research and crafting my world renowned brilliant scholarly papers.  I mean come on... i just wish um... I wish it was on my terms instead of theirs... hahah like that will ever happen.

So yes. Back to the grind. Listening to Jay-Z and wearing pj's more often then regular clothes.
And eating breadsticks...

Thanksgiving is soon = Mom & Dad + Chaser + Me - (how insanely short my visit is) = Very happy.


Oh and remember when I asked when it would get cold? The answer was this week. I feel the snow a'comin.